On September 4, 2010 I lost my youngest son in a tragic drowning accident in a canal in Wellington. Since then I have read so much about grief and heaven and faith. I began writing my thoughts at the urging of a friend who encouraged me to write a chapter in her book. Recently, I wanted to write more ideas that were coming to me and began a Facebook Page by the same name, Michael and Me - A Love Story Between a Mother & Son, https://www.facebook.com/MichaelAndMe.aLoveStory
I write pretty consistently there. Here is one of my posts.
We have a purpose in our lives. Before we arrived on earth we made a contract with our spiritual guides that we would come to earth and learn specific lessons. Everything that happens in our life is to help us to learn those lessons. What lessons are you learning from the passing of your children and how can you help others with that knowledge? In the past month I read '90 Minutes in Heaven' by Don Piper and now I'm reading his book 'Heaven is Real'. I'm thinking about those two questions I wrote above and have come to the conclusion that because of Michael and only Michael, I became a better mother and stronger woman. My other three children are wonderful however it was Michael's life-long medical issues, then school issues, then legal issues and most recently his alcohol and drug issues that taught me so much. If you had asked me prior to Michael's birth that I would have to deal with all of that, I would have said, I can't handle all of that. I'm ill equipped to take care of that child. I would never have believed that I could deal with brain surgery, recovery, therapists, MRI's, broken arms, fork lift accident, broken leg, court, jail, residential treatment centers, Baker Acting, binge drinking, and so many other things that just writing has my heart constricting. God sent Michael to me because he knew that I would take care of him and do everything in my power to take care of him. Michael was so happy all the time even though he dealt with so much. He was happy because I took care to make him as comfortable as possible. So what is your lesson in the passing of your child and what are you going to do now that you have learned this lesson? Sending you lots of blessings as you explore deep down inside for the answers. I'm here if you need to talk. Love, Michael's MoM
